Good intentions for June 

Something I have wanted to share for a while now. I’m doing it. I want to write some positive thoughts down. I want to share them with you. Usually this list sits in my notes on my phone. I look back on it as the month unfolds and think to myself I must tick that off.

Each morning I wake. Each morning I get up before the house stirs. I drink my coffee, sometimes I exercise. Sometimes I don’t. Sometimes I look through my social channels. Sometimes I lose myself.

It’s my time to reflect.

I feel lucky to have a loving family around me, to have good friends, to have my health and good fortune. To have water, food, a roof over my head and friendship. Love is all around me and I say this with a heavy heart that I know how lucky I am. I have my demons, my troubled childhood and early adulthood that often rears its ugly head. Thoughts and feelings that trouble me and will do for as long as I can remember. However I try to live my life with a positive outlook because I am no longer in that position. I came through it. I have my gorgeous George as a product of unconditional love. I will forever be thankful for that.

Since reading some of Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place on our trip to America I am trying even more so than usual to look for the positive in every situation. To be aware of the little things around me. To smile. To be happy. But also to be aware of triggers, situations or people that don’t always make me smile. That sometimes have a negative impact. Which isn’t always possible. It’s important to recognise the signs, I’m doing that more and more and closing the door on those situations or people. It feels good, also scary but on the whole really good.

I want to live with intention. To believe in myself. I want to teach George to do everything with good intentions. Personally, I dislike chaos, noise and bad vibes. So does George and so does Mr H.

 

And so my good intentions for June are:

 

1.Spend less time on social media

I think we are all guilty of spending too much time online. Of scrolling. I am guilty of doing it before I go to bed. When I wake. During the day and beyond. I need to set myself a switch off button. Although Love Island certainly is a distraction at the moment I need to turn off. We are a very active family, we spend a lot of our free time doing and being together but on occasion I do lose myself.

 

2.To get back on track with my fitness

I have taken a few weeks off since our holiday. One because we were away for nearly three weeks and since coming back I wasn’t ready to get back into it. It’s a huge commitment. Although after returning to training this week and being in the pain I am after two days I wish I had never stepped away. I am happier when I am training, I feel good and love all the positive endorphins running through my veins. I feel alive.

 

3.Take time out to see my friends more

Life really does get in the way sometimes doesn’t it? It’s not an excuse but gosh it can be a real balance fitting everything in. But I love my friends and nothing feels better than a chat over coffee and cake. Or a cocktail. I only wish some of my friends live closer. I miss them. Before George arrived, before after school clubs and beyond it was much easier. I need to find a way of seeing my friends more.

 

4.To stand up and talk more about what I am passionate about

More and more I’m seeing body shaming. But not in the way you would associate it with. I feel really upset by a recent body positive movement. It’s going too far. I feel those people are body shaming me for exercising, for being committed to training. Why is it OK? In whatever form to comment on other peoples bodies. No matter their shape or size it is not ok. Whether they love fitness or love their bodies for what they are. We should be supportive, in sickness and in health. I’m passionate about fitness, about being healthy, about looking after my body. Yet I regularly hear people saying being fit and healthy is not achievable. Anything is achievable if you want it. Simple.

Why, because we need to teach our children to love their bodies. Of course we should. But, they need to know the importance of exercise and the importance of a balanced diet. Of being healthy. Of looking after ourselves. Our bodies are our vessel – they carry us, through life, they protect us. I want to be here and active when George has his own family, I want to run around the playground with his children. I won’t be able to do that if I am not healthy, if I don’t look after my body. That starts now, well actually many years ago.

 

5.Help others

For years I volunteered for a Charity. Whether it was fundraising, taking bags of clothes to charities or leaflet dropping. But, in recent years it has fallen off as I’ve focused my time on supporting George and his endeavours.  I am trying to do more, I’m very active with George’s school – I am now a parent Governor and regularly support the schools version of a PTFA. I enjoy giving something back to the community and hope to find another way of doing a little bit more.

 

And that’s my thoughts on my good intentions for June. They’re all incredibly simple, good intentions but ones that I know are achievable. Some are new feels. Or old intentions that never quite made it to my priority list. But with a same heart. I will start each new month with good intentions.