Dear Lil G, so much has changed for us this year, you embarked on your biggest journey yet, your time to learn about the world outside of our little family. We have readdressed the balance of home, family and work life which has eased the pressure on you somewhat than those first few months of School. You are off making friendships with little people outside of our circle of friends and you are becoming the most remarkable little person I know. You are headstrong and certainly have a way with words, you are such a happy soul, you are beautiful, you are my saviour, you are bold, brave and so like your Daddy.
Standing before me this morning on your 5th birthday, I couldn’t help but smile back at you, you are growing up, you looked so big, one thing is for certain you are growing up way too fast my boy and it certainly left me feeling very emotional. I am so proud to be the one you call mummy, as I write this post to you I am holding back the tears, happy tears but also tears from those first few weeks of your life which were so difficult for you and us.
I am feeling somewhat overwhelmed this year by how much you have grown up, by how independent you have become. When you held my face at bedtime tonight and told me that you loved me, that you had had the best birthday ever, I felt so emotional. I felt so proud that you were thankful. As I left the bedroom to the sounds of your chuckles as Daddy read a story to you I may have cried, just a little whilst I washed the dishes, tidied your playroom and nibbled on a piece of birthday cake. Cake makes everything better right?
I love all the quirky little bits about your personality, your sense of humour, your little laugh, the giggle you make when I tickle you which only I seem to be able to do (punches air). But also the little bits about your personality which are so like ours, your love for music and football, or any sport actually, how you know the words to so many of our favourite songs and your passion for listening to live music. Today you asked if we could go to Glastonbury, just like your Daddy did all those years ago just before you arrived. And then there is your insane love for Disney, Marvel, Star Wars and lets not forget cake!
What else has happened this year? Your first day of School, your continued love for dressing up in your super hero outfits, your School Christmas disco, learning to read, reading a book back to us, oh how I cried. And then there is your writing, pulling together sentences in the written form and writing out your birthday invitations, finally arriving into a Size 4 clothes, finally we are getting that little bit closer to your actually age. You love football so much that when you were given a gift of money on your birthday you asked if we could buy a new football kit. Mr H smiled just a little, well actually a whole lot.
I didn’t realise that School would be such a big transition for you, being one of the youngest in the year it has had its challenges. I am so proud of you for going into your new classroom with a hop, skip and a jump, for smiling and for being so brave. For not giving up even when you were crying saying that the School work was tricky. For staying strong and chipping away bit by bit, you are my brave little soldier and I will always love you, now and forever I will always be your mummy, the one you can trust, you can laugh with, cry with and sing with.
There is a bond I feel for you that only gets stronger the more our little family life entwines. As the end of your first year of School approaches as does the beginning of the next. A new chapter. As we close the door on chapter 4/12, I am excited to see what chapter 5/12 brings. May it be full of love, laughter and a huge amount of adventure. And so, I shall leave you with a few photo’s from the last twelve months, we love you kid.